Saturday, May 18, 2002

Hmmm....below question was intended for Dysphorena...but if you'd like to answer it, you can e-mail me or IM FieryGwenivere.


I'm in an Aerosmith mood.

On with it.
FieryGwenivere: if you had to pick a day of the week that the name of the general idea of sounded the most familiar to you, which one would you pick?
FieryGwenivere: like, when you think of that day of the week, it evokes more of a feeling of familiarity and friendliness than the rest. If you had to
FieryGwenivere: Another way of putting it- If the days of the week were all people, which one would be most likely to be your friend? Realistically, not ideally.

I already asked Ben and Chad, but I'm not going to post their answers because I want this to be unbiased. But Ben and I are on the same wavelength! Hooray for us!

Answer answer answer

Friday, May 17, 2002

I've heard a lot about the Friday Five lately, and have wanted to participate for a while, but it seems that every friday, I forget. It feels wrong to do it at another time during the week, so I've yet to answer a single friday five question. Today, however, it occured to me, from no where, that it is, in fact, the day for it. So here first ever Friday Five answers.

1. What shampoo do you use?
My mother is all about buying things from stores that are being given away free after rebate. She does this's like it gives her life value. Oftentimes, this results in having high-quality hair products in the house for a short period of time, but never the same kind, I'm always having to change- our family are like hair-care nomads. If there are no special rebate shampoos in the house, she's probably bought V05. My favorite kind, however, is Herbal Essences or Pantene.

2. Do you use conditioner? What kind?
I use conditioner every time, and probably on more parts of my body than most people. Once again, however, it's whatever is in the house. Still, my favorites are Herbal Essences and Pantene.

3. When was the last time you got your hair cut?
Jenn cut my hair....several weeks before the prom. Not a major change, a few inches, but she also dyed it and curled it- it looked great the next day. I told her I'd let her cut it really short after the prom, but I'm holding out on that- at the suggestion of Mr. Leighton, actually, I've decided to grow it out really long. I think I'd look great with hair a few inches past my shoulders.

4. What styling products do you use?
Mousse when it's really, really misbehaving, or when I want to do something special with it, or if I'm bored....sometimes I'll just sit their and style my hair for hours for entertainment purposes...god, I hate being a girl. In general, though, nothing- I make enough of my own natural grease.

5. What's your worst hair-related experience?
Once, when I was headbanging "Flagpole Sitta", a large wisp of my hair flew into my open mouth, found it's way to my throat, and made me throw up a little into my hand. Aside from that, though, the summer before fifth grade I made the mistake of cutting it really short. I had just seen true lies and I told the stylist I wanted it to look like Jamie Lee Curtis. People mistook me for a boy sooooo many times that year- it was traumatizing. And it's never stayed really straight since.

Hmmmm...I wonder if the questions are normally more interesting than that...either way, perhaps if I encourage Dysphorenans to answer them, that place will pick up a little.

On with it.

Thursday, May 16, 2002

Wow.....there's this whole section in the middle of that last post that I completely managed to lose...about missing Kenny, and Jeremey, and my sister and my puppy and eating dinner as a family, and Epsilon, and the fab five...and everything. Somehow, it got cut out, and in such a way that it flowed really well. But that sucks.

A lot. It was touching. Be touched. Damn it.

On with it.
"It's quarter to three
There's no one in the place
'Cept you and me
So set 'em up Joe
I got a little story
I think you should know.
We're drinking, my friend,
To the very end
Of a brief episode.
Make it one for my baby,
And one for the road."

I'm listening to Robbie William's Sinatra tribute album, One For My Baby, I think this is called, and moving my stuff from my room to my new room- which is here, where the computer it. I guess I could never really explain it, but this makes me extremely depressed....change is one of the things in life I like the least. This time I gave in. I decided that, sentament or no sentament, it's time I got some practice dealing with change. It was a practical decision.

After "One More for My Baby", a really happy, upbeat song comes on. The repeat function on my stereo isn't working real well, so I have to keep getting up to restart the song. I've been working hard to stay in this particular was important to me to say all of this. I've said it now....I should let it go on. It would be a practical decision.

Am I ready to be practical?

One more time restart. On with it.

Wednesday, May 15, 2002

Crossdressers crossdressers crossdressers! How damn often do I talk about crossdressers?

I didn't think very often, but every other weird google search I get seems to be about them. What is with this? Did I put it in my meta tags or something? Have I been posting in my sleep, over and over again, "Crossdressers, get your crossdressers here! Fresh, high-quality crossdressers! All crossly dressed! Come and get your crossdressers!"

....and wouldn't it be weird if that were it, and I got it right on the ball?

As you can see, I put up a...thing that allows you to subscribe to my newsletter straight from this page....most of you who read this are already subscribed, but for those of you who aren't, I strongly recommend it. Lots of crossdressers in it. (Not really, but odds are 2-1, that's what you came here looking if you subscribe, I'll include some crossdressing in the next one, just for you!)

Issue 16 is finally out. Subscribers, check your inboxes. Those of you not yet, subscribe soon, and you won't have to go digging through the soon-to-be-online archives to find 16. It's douche-tacular.

Made an advertisement for it in desktop publishing far, that's been a bigger hit than the actual issue. People like brevity, apparently.

No wonder I don't get many hits.

On with it.

Tuesday, May 14, 2002

My possibly previously unmentioned inability to digest anything at all normally is becoming more and more a disruptive force in my life by the day. Jeff wants me to see a doctor about it. I don't want to chance getting my (albeit completely unhealthy) diet changed- I can only eat certain things.

If you were someone who was interested in getting to know me psychologically, you'd eventually figure out that one of my biggest problems is that I can convince myself of pretty much anything, to a degree anyway, and I use this talent to convince myself that I absolutely cannot do certain things, that I don't have the willpower to make myself do them. This is another disruptive force in my life.

Nancy Chizmar died today, I don't really think I care. Apathy...possibly another disruptive force in my life, but I don't know and I don't give a shit either way.

From the time I last sent out my newsletter till today, I have managed to gather 20 new subscribers...some willingly, others...yeah, not. And while it's taking me a damned long time to get it written, as I seem to have abandoned the "sit down and do it in an hour, it'll be good" method, it will happen....I swear. Hopefully after I'm a few issues into this rebirth I'll be able to do it the old way again.

Between reviving the Newsletter, my journal to Mr. Hall, and dysphorena, I haven't had much time to update this, and I haven't had much to say, at any rate. This is hardly the only thing getting neglected....I owe Mitch the second half of an e-mail I started writing him last week, and I haven't written Jeff or anyone else.

I've got a lot to say to Mitch, though, maybe too much. He's become one of my confidants lately. Our lack of interaction wears on me.

The right half of my space bar isn't working- don't ask me how, I don't know either....but it's hindering my typing ability anyway, so I'm going to end this quickly.

On with it.